This year has been a year of working on and prioritizing my mental health. I declared it at the beginning of the year, and despite many minor derailments, I have made some huge progress so far. It’s been really, really difficult work, and I am exhausted. I’ve found myself lately with a mantra that I don’t want - I’m so tired . I don’t mean physically tired, though I am that as well. I mean soul tired. From what I’ve read, this is a part of healing. After being on high alert for so long, my system, my body, my brain, my heart, my soul - everything is exhausted, and rest is needed. It sounds easy enough, right? Rest is complicated. Maybe it shouldn’t be, but for me, at this moment in time, it is. After a lifetime of extreme highs and lows and a constant, fearful uncertainty, I have no idea how to rest - let alone how to actually enjoy it. But, I’m working on it. It does take focused effort right now. I still have to remind myself that I am safe. That there i...